Unfortunately I received a phone call from a friend at around midnight on a Friday night about 5 years ago, "Can you come over and be with us, the police are coming over shortly apparently our son committed suicide". I feel for the Hillinski family and the pain they have to deal with. You second guess yourself as a parent, a friend, asking what could I have done, telling yourself I should have known. The reality is there is nothing you could have done, he came from a loving family, was a great individual, surrounded by great friends and teammates. I just wish hope that anyone contemplating taking their lives, looks at the other side, and all the pain you leave behind, as it is far greater than whatever demons you maybe dealing with. My heart goes out to the Hillinski family and all of his friends. Just know as a family you did everything you could, you raised a great son, loved him, cared for him, he was blessed to have a loving family that you provided. I feel your pain, but don't for one second look at yourselves as part of the problem. My thoughts and prayers are with you, your son was and is a beautiful person, and remember all the wonderful things you shared as a family.